Absence and Distance
Change has been a big theme this year. It always is for everyone, every year; that's why tarot cards, psychics and horoscopes can predict a change in work, relationships or finances and can allude to some ambiguous influence of a male figure. Change is still coming for me this year and not in the dark and ambiguous tarot-style foreboding sense I usually feel. The change this year has been visceral and the change to come is tangible. In many ways, my world is exactly the same and has changed only in the ways you'd expect for a university graduate. I walk the same streets, listen to the same songs and watch my friends and I make the same silly mistakes. Yet something feels different in the air: The air feels thinner, smoother, with less resistance, and yet, I am keenly aware of my own presence as it moves and cuts through it. I am also acutely cognizant that something is missing. It is not missing from me, but from the invisible landscape of my life. It is as if I am in the mat
